Owam

Thank you for checking out my blog.This blog isn't about my life or any evento that may have occurred in my life .Browse through and enjoy? .

A great friend of mine has been yearning for new reads and just as I was trying to scribble some words and come up with something, someone tried to kidnap me.

3 in five post and tweets are about missing people. Ladies to be specific. How did I not know that I could be one of the victims too? It's probably because I thought I knew all the signs of kidnapers and how they operate but guess what,when you're the victim,all of a sudden you become dumb.

As a working honors candidate,I keep on applying for permant jobs due to the fact that my temporal job is underpaying and I actually would love to have a persal number,amongst other things.

As I am applying, I eye mostly permant posts. Now this almost landed me into being trafficked or something along those lines.

Mbonge uJehova mphefumlo wam because the day had come and because under Jesus's wings I am safe nothing tragic happened.

Just like any other days,i apply when I spot a permant post. Today I applied again,via email. Guess what?. I got a call in less than 2 hours after applying. Great news? The caller and did the formalities (greetings) .He then asked if I could really perform duties for the post I had applied for. A girl is desperate and excited ofcourse because non out of a trillion applications have had the guts to e-mail me back to say maybe they have received my documents. Did I not jump and assure the caller that I'd do twice the job if I'd get it. Where's the catch? The job is permant so I'm sold! Haha.

The caller then proceedes to say “bring your copies to our district at 16:30 today” I'm an idiot so I said I'll make it on time. It's a 5 hours drive and the time is 12:00 . Who am I kidding. In the mist of this confusion,I rember that I did send my documents via e-mail,then I thought they probably want to verify whatever,so I brushed the thought off. I didnt want to be negative. I told the caller I'll be late,and I was told that I'm given until 18:00

I quickly grabbed my things at where I currently work then vanished without a word.

On my way,I played all kinds of scenarios in my head. The good and the bad. Mostly the good becauseI wanted to be positive about this.

Did I mention that the caller gave me the directions to this district? Well in the car I hiked, I told the driver that I'm not familiar with the place where I was heading to so I'll need him to be of help.

He was gentleman enough to help. After this long hour drive. I got to my destination at 17:00pm,in town actually not the district. I decidedto call one of my aunts and my friend to alert them if the situation. My aunt asked me to wait for her husband to come pick me and drop me at the destination as she found this whole thing fishy. I wanted to refuse but then I also didn't want to have regrets at the endof the day.

I had started to be anxious because of what my aunt said but I decided to stay calm. As I was waiting for my aunt's husband,I decided to let the caller know that I'm in town.

The caller suggested that we should meet next to mamasipa tradings,I didn't know the place so I asked the caller to meet me at malunch restaurant instead.

I went and sat in at malunch. As I was waiting. I told my aunt,the lady legit said “if you know what's best for you,you won't leave that restaurant before I send someone to come fetch you because this caller isnt legit.” Say what? I decided to call the caller again because I was starting to panic. I'm glad to say it's probably still bringing. My caller mized me. This is all because I wanted to meet in a place where there were people yet the caller wanted to meet me in different setting.

Now it's 19:00 the caller isnt picking up , my aunt and my friend are panicking. Don't “what about you?” me. There was a coldfront in my stomach.

I was fliddling and biting my nails, working out possible answers to this. It was getting late. My aunt alternatively decided to send her friendfriends to come pick me because “I was in danger ” . I got calls from atleast 8 people trying to save my life. Mr Sizwe Kuphelo is one of those people.

The caller did not answer my calls. My aunt's friendfriends picked me. I couldn't even explain what was going on to them.I kept on saying,” your guess is as good as mine “ to each question asked. My friend,aunt and her friendfriends saved my life. I would be writing this from China now after sniffing cocain and 24 hours of forced heterosexual sex.

I literally don't know how I ended up in a homophobic,xenophobic,transphobic and racist country!

I was about to count people I've lost to death ,then I remembered,they left with my soul. I'm right amongst them haha.

I love my significant other so much. Sometimes I just – wow! I struggle to put in words .

Haha I'm a walking corpse. Wanna die so baaaad but who is going to achieve my goals? My spirit perhaps.

I want to die but not with my dreams. Dreams that are actually killing me.

It has been a while since I've let my fingers pour my heart out.

I- I find it hard to vent these days because I'm empty. It's probably because I've- I can't go on any more. I just – !.

Things literally take time to work out. At the end of the day, they work out.

Depression got me by the horns.

Depression got me by the horns.